March 6, 2008 (Jessica's questions in her Religion class at school)
Question: Do large reactions sometimes have to happen to cause betterment of the world? I mean, if desaster times are necessary to make people believe again?
Question: I want to know why God is sad when people disobey [him].
I like to go into the religion class and am considering to be nice and behave well
Question: Can Mr Kamuf tell me if the righ to be a guest on earth must be earned?
[What do you mean by that?]
I mean if we have to earn the new life by virtuous behavior? I am in anguish because I do not know what worthless life of disabled people is supposed to accomplish. I cannot let up being watchfull.
[What do you mean?]
I mean, why do bad hearts have to wait for heaven time and are not punished on earth? I am very thankful for these conversations and will try to behave.
Mr. Kamuf [the religion teacher] has respectfully given me comfort. I can bear autistic disability better now. We will tell him that he has to come again and talk to us.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
I was trying to get a good photo of Jessica but she generally does not make that easy. So much of our life together is waiting. I either learn to just love her and love the process or I am sad. I choose to enjoy the wait. In the end that is life...it is the process. Does that make any sense or is it too Zen?